road trip that will never happenTomorrow is the day I'm supposed to start summer classes.
Iím not going to take any classes.
Once again, Iíve failed. I couldnít even try.
I want to run away, but I canít. I have to repay the student loans I took out this semester because they wouldnít let me have my scholarship money in the first place.
I spent lots of it already paying off credit card bills and buying things for school.
Why do I have to ruin everything?
If for some miraculous reason I donít have to pay back the part of the loan that was already disbursed to me, this is what I want to do.
Maybe Iíll gain some self esteem. Maybe Iíll reconcile all the things that make me hate myself. Maybe Iíll find out who I really am.