07.07.04
11:14 p.m.
I need to prioritize better
I am so stressed right now; I feel like crying. Tomorrow is my bankruptcy hearing. My lawyer called tonight at 9:30pm and asked if I had any questions. I said no. He reminded me to bring my social security card and driver’s license. Without a second thought, I said I would. I double checked after I hung up with him, and noticed my social security card has gone AWOL. I’ve been in a frantic state since. I have literally torn my house apart looking for it. The thing that really irritates me – I’m so anal retentive about everything else. My CDs, books, even my fucking debit cards are in alphabetical order. My clothes are arranged by color and length. My facial cleansers/moisturizers have to have the labels facing out and be in order of use. How can I be so fucking nit picky about stupid things, and lose the most important document I own?Have you ever been so overwhelmed that the tiniest thing just drives you over the edge; when you just want to sit in the corner and cry? Maybe that’s just me.
I’m sorry, I can’t even think straight right now, let alone write a cohesive entry.
