08.06.04
11:25 p.m.
Acceptance
I guess I�m just ignorant to the ways of the world. For some stupid reason I thought that I could charge things to my student account and the financial aid they�re holding hostage would pay for them. Stupid me.No...what they want me to do is pay for everything out of my pocket, and then 30 days after the semester starts, they�ll disburse my financial aid, and all will be right with the world. Am I wrong, or aren�t you given financial aid because you can�t afford college?
So, I�ve been reduced to borrowing money from my father, and trust me, it isn�t the most enjoyable conversation to have. I had to hear the lecture about personal responsibility, financial health, and why I�m not ready to go to college, yet. Yeah, I don�t know where that one came from either. I suppose 24 is still a little young; maybe I should wait until my mid thirties.
Anyway, I�ve decided he�s right, I�m not fiscally fit and I really shouldn�t be allowed to handle my own funds. I do waste money, I admit it. But, damn it, I�ve tried to save � I really have. I just feel guilty having superfluous (look at me, I can use big words) cash sitting in the bank when it could be used to help the local animal shelter, finding a cure for cancer, a drunken night in the bar, or the occasional eyebrow wax. I really could afford a lot more things if I could just ignore my conscience once in awhile.
I�ll never be rich.