10.29.06
12:23 a.m.
how did I used to do this every night?
I could get used to using a Mac. I feel so dirty when I use it, though. It's like I'm cheating on my PC. Even with your flaws, Windows, I still love you most.I've been to two parties in the last two days. That's more partying than I've done in the last two years. I'm really not a party girl, and I felt completely uncomfortable at both of them. Last night I went to a Halloween party at the company Mark works for (which was a good opportunity for me, because I wouldn't mind getting an internship there). It was a costume party, so I decided to go as Holly Golightly from Breakfast at Tiffany's.
I thought it was original, but apparently it's not.
You have no idea how much I wanted to light that cigarette all night long. Why would I think I could go anywhere as Audrey Hepburn?! That woman was a waif and I felt like a whale all night.
Tonight I went to another Halloween party with Mark, but thank God, it wasn't a costume party. I'm thoroughly partied out for awhile.
I was so nice it was sickening. You would've laughed at me if you were watching from the sidelines. I'm such a fake.
Everything about Mark is perfect. Maybe I should stop looking for everything that's wrong and just enjoy what's right.
I'm exhausted and don't feel like driving home. His bed does look cozy...
