06.12.06
1:49 a.m.
road trip that will never happen
Tomorrow is the day I'm supposed to start summer classes.Supposed to.
I�m not going to take any classes.
Once again, I�ve failed. I couldn�t even try.
I want to run away, but I can�t. I have to repay the student loans I took out this semester because they wouldn�t let me have my scholarship money in the first place.
I spent lots of it already paying off credit card bills and buying things for school.
Why do I have to ruin everything?
If for some miraculous reason I don�t have to pay back the part of the loan that was already disbursed to me, this is what I want to do.
Alone.
Maybe I�ll gain some self esteem. Maybe I�ll reconcile all the things that make me hate myself. Maybe I�ll find out who I really am.
