05.16.06
3:09 p.m.
hypocrite
I took my last final yesterday afternoon. My final final. It was my physics final, and I think I did ok.However, I was so nervous beforehand. I get so anxious and so fucking wound up that the world is going to end if I don�t know the answer to a test question. I�m sick of it.
I made an appointment at the community health center to get a prescription of Xanax and my asthma meds. I was forced to actually. I�m registered with the health center because I don�t have insurance and I�m afraid that if I ever got sick I�d have nowhere to go. Or get sued for not paying my bill (again).
But, I�ve refused to use it. I called to renew my registration, but they require everyone to be seen at least once a year. So, I�m somewhat being forced to go to the doctor. I feel guilty that I�m even registered with them.
It�s called the Colorado Indigent Care Program. Indigent. Thanks.
But I suppose I am. Indigent.
I complain about Jackie being on welfare, Medicare and every other government program that will give you money for popping out children you couldn�t afford in the first place � which is every single one � but here I am on a government program.
I�m a hypocrite.
That word basically sums up my life.
