03.21.06
1:34 a.m.
secrets
There are a lot of things that I haven�t told anyone and that I've never admitted. I think part of my problem is that I keep everything inside until I can't take it anymore and I feel so out of control and lost.The whole point of this diary was so that I could admit everything � even stuff that I was ashamed of; in some ways I have.
But I still have my secrets. There are secrets I try to keep to myself and some that I try to keep from myself.
I�m going to let them out. I think it�s the only way that I�ll eventually be ok.
Starting today.
This is the place that I�ve purged every single day, sometimes multiple times daily, for more than 8 months.
I don�t purge in the toilet, because I�ve told myself that it�s disgusting.
I know that this is worse and that all the bleach and cleaner and lemons and ice cubes and baking soda will not make it any better.
Starting today I�m done.
