11.14.05
1:16 a.m.
I love you mostest
Ok, here it is: I need to quit this bulimia/anorexia/coe bullshit.The one person I love the most in this world doesn�t think I love him.
Truth be told, I think it�s probably pretty hard to love me, and it�s probably pretty hard to see that I love you.
This sickness is eating my brain. It�s making me crazier than I think I really am. I�ve been obsessed with my life, my food, my issues.
I�m selfish.
All I care about is me. And, my issues. And, how much I�m hurting. And, how much I hate me.
It�s probably so hard to even like me, let alone love me.
But he does.
And he deserves the respect and love and every wonderful thing in this world, because he�s loved me more than anyone ever has, or probably ever will.
He�s my best friend, and I�m pushing him away. I�m going to lose him because I�m too fucking stubborn and goddamn selfish to get over myself for five fucking minutes and give a shit about another human being�s feelings.
I�m so sorry.
I love you so much.
