08.19.04
1:01 a.m.
Over-analyze
It�s less than 100 hours now. Soon, I�ll be counting minutes.I�ve literally been so anxious, worried, and stressed the past few days. The people around me have almost been pushed to murder. I�ve been bitter that I have to work this week; I had asked for it off to mentally prepare for school. I suppose it�s a good thing I�ve been forced to work. I don�t have time to over-analyze things.
I don�t know what I�m so afraid of...
Yes I do - everything. Failure, success, quitting, persevering, acceptance, disapproval, criticism, praise. I�m afraid, not only to fail, but to thrive. Change is a horrible thing. Life is much simpler when you live within your comfort zone. The rut I�ve worn fits me well, and I�m reluctant to climb out and see the possibilities. Of course if I don�t, I�ll never be truly happy with myself. I�ll get used to it. At least that�s what I tell myself.
I guess I don�t need extra time to over-analyze things. I can multi-task.
*sigh*
