I think I know whyIt's been a pretty challenging day. I had an exam this morning at 8:00am, but I woke up at 8:09am.
Luckily, the professor let me take it later in the day - with a penalty. Which, I'm grateful for, but I'm still disappointed in myself.
Also, I feel like The Boy is upset with me, but I'm not sure. I've jumped to conclusions before (too many times) and I've been wrong. I've already annoyed him enough with text messages and voice mails, so now I'm just trying to not annoy him even more.
I hate this feeling - the feeling I get when I think someone I love is upset with me - especially because he hasn't even said he is. He's this amazing, awesome person and I'm just scared out of my mind that I'm going to fuck this up. And because I worry about it all the time, I am fucking it up.
I refuse to fuck this up.
There really is no point to this post except that I had a bad day and I really need a friend.