I just don't know HOWI fucked up really bad, and I'm ok with the consequences that follow for me, but I can not live with the fact that I hurt someone I love so much.
I know it doesn't help, but I've apologized profusely, and I mean every single word of it. However, I don't think that it's something so easily forgiven, and I understand that being hurt again is a huge deterrent in ever trusting me again. I just hope he can forgive me, because I absolutely love him. 100%, unconditionally, forever kind of love, and that doesn't come around often... or ever, really.
I think he's worth it and I will fight to keep him. I will do everything in my power to make sure the most perfect for me person doesn't leave without a fight.
Because he's worth fighting for. A thousand times over.