03.20.07

12:07 a.m.

shamed

So, I guess you're right. I'm not going to email him.

I still can't help but feel that it is all my fault. That if I wasn't such a fucking moron, or if I wasn't too clingy, or if I was just a better person, this wouldn't have happened.

But, if I email him it'll just show how pathetic I am.

I've lied to everyone else except you. They all think he's still this wonderful guy and that he had a second interview during our trip, and that's why he had to cancel. And that I just don't want a long distance relationship and that we amicably split. And I am such a god damn liar.

Because I have never felt more shame in my entire life.

The real estate broker cancelled, too. It's quite apparent; no one wants me.

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