shamedSo, I guess you're right. I'm not going to email him.
I still can't help but feel that it is all my fault. That if I wasn't such a fucking moron, or if I wasn't too clingy, or if I was just a better person, this wouldn't have happened.
But, if I email him it'll just show how pathetic I am.
I've lied to everyone else except you. They all think he's still this wonderful guy and that he had a second interview during our trip, and that's why he had to cancel. And that I just don't want a long distance relationship and that we amicably split. And I am such a god damn liar.
Because I have never felt more shame in my entire life.
The real estate broker cancelled, too. It's quite apparent; no one wants me.