02.14.06
3:38 a.m.
I heart vd
Happy Valentine�s Day. It�s 3:38am and I just finished some of my homework that�s due today.Bleh.
Tonight Jackie had a fucking drama fit and made me take her to the hospital. NOTHING was wrong with her. She�s pregnant and she thinks the world should bow to her. If they don�t she�ll create some drama so that she gets sympathy.
It made me miss class. And I couldn�t turn in my homework so I emailed my professor and begged that he take the homework late � if only for a fraction of full credit.
I�m really quite sick of this whole pregnancy thing.
No, I�m really just quite sick of Jackie and her selfishness.
It�s been building and I can only imagine how it must look when I bad mouth my �best� friend of 20 years.
I feel like I have to run away to escape her. I can�t just not be her friend anymore � it�s been too long.
And this isn�t about her pregnancy and me feeling �left behind� or any other psychological jealousy issues that people may think.
I�m certainly not jealous of someone who planned to have a baby on welfare and Medicare so that she wouldn�t have to pay anything out of her pocket. (Oh yeah � I�m just as mad as you.)
Her mother buys her and her husband�s groceries every week. Along with paying her cable, cell phone, and DSL bills.
The only thing they�re responsible for paying is the mortgage. And her parents re-mortgaged their house to sign for it.
I�m jealous to a certain extent I suppose. Jealous that she has everything she�s ever wanted and hasn�t worked for it at all.
But then a part of me is utterly disgusted that people can live like that.
So I guess I�ve just matured, and she�s still the little girl that can�t take care of herself?
Except she�s decided to reproduce.
I need to get quite a bit of bitching about her off my chest, but I just can�t do it right now. I�m exhausted and tomorrow is going to be hell.
