unValentine's DayYet another Valentineís Day alone.
Iím used to it.
J never celebrated it. Something about giving bologna or something. I so donít miss him. At all.
In other relationships, weíd always break it off before Valentineís Day.
I guess I did most of the breakingÖmost of the pushing away.
I feel that if I let myself love someone, Iíll be powerless. Get hurt. The minute I feel it coming on, I push and push and push until they leave. Until I become so unbearable they donít want me anymore.
I suppose most people are afraid to be hurt. But, most people are willing to risk it.
I guess Iím not there yet.
I bought myself flowers today.