08.19.04
1:01 a.m.
Over-analyze
It’s less than 100 hours now. Soon, I’ll be counting minutes.I’ve literally been so anxious, worried, and stressed the past few days. The people around me have almost been pushed to murder. I’ve been bitter that I have to work this week; I had asked for it off to mentally prepare for school. I suppose it’s a good thing I’ve been forced to work. I don’t have time to over-analyze things.
I don’t know what I’m so afraid of...
Yes I do - everything. Failure, success, quitting, persevering, acceptance, disapproval, criticism, praise. I’m afraid, not only to fail, but to thrive. Change is a horrible thing. Life is much simpler when you live within your comfort zone. The rut I’ve worn fits me well, and I’m reluctant to climb out and see the possibilities. Of course if I don’t, I’ll never be truly happy with myself. I’ll get used to it. At least that’s what I tell myself.
I guess I don’t need extra time to over-analyze things. I can multi-task.
*sigh*
